When chaos, confusion and uncertainty have prowled over your life - and treated you as a rag doll - to no end, even fraction and inches of silence begin to gnaw your existence. The placidity regurgitated from the passing storm, agitating at first, becomes all the more unbearable. An odd ringing in your ears ensues as if the silence around you is shrieking, pleading to be let out. It is not dark. It is not gloomy. Au contraire it is pleasant. Sickeningly pleasant. Such that your gut begins to squirm and churn. Horribly. And those pointing fingers. That critique. That noise. You wanted to get away from, beckons as if a craving. Proving yourself. Again. Again. And again. Does not feel so bad anymore. You realise. The turbulence suddenly is your monotony. This peace your change. You want it to return. To clash. Again. To triumph. Again. To smell victory. Again. Not lust. Not desire. This is your self-worth. Your reason of being. Your purpose.
Architecture's hard. Makes me feel all that.
ReplyDeleteMiss talking to you ^_^.
Then talk we must.
Delete'Back with a bang?' :P
ReplyDeleteLiked it, actually. It's more than just a little similar to what an author said once.
Haha. Thank you for your patience while I was away.
DeleteThat writer and I must have a lot in common, then. I must meet him (if he is still alive, that is).
Lol The author is none other than Thomas Harris, whose novels are the kind that bore you - as you once remarked. He is currently 71 and reportedly a very good cook. Are you one too? lol
DeleteOh by the way, I still see no comments on my little thumb-sucking blog =P Not asking you to go through the pains of logging onto blogspot and commenting, but just want to know what you think.
Really good!
ReplyDeleteHmm, very good article made me think a lot.
ReplyDeleteThanks Mr Saeed.